Seems I’m actually pretty perceptive! I was not wrong about “amazing man’s” retreat! Small victory, to be right. He has informed me that he does not want a relationship. Basically, he’s not ready for a relationship, with me or anyone else. He said that he likes me and likes spending time with me, but he’s not in love with me. (Ouch!) He feels like he’s hurting me, and he would rather lose me as a friend than continue to hurt me.
Now, I know this sounds bad, but I do think he’s sincere. For those of you who don’t know me, this piece of info is important: We are not physically intimate. So, he isn’t “using” me, which seems to be the popular assumption.
Back to me because it is my blog! I have to decide what I can handle. Can I continue to hang out with him without feeling rejected? I don’t want to lose him. We have developed a great friendship. But will my secret hope be that he will fall in love with me? I just don’t know.
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Doesn't it suck to be right? Is his current state something that you can wait out and see what happens? Can you be just friends with somebody for whom your feelings run considerably deeper? I could ask these questions all day, but I'm sure others have their own to ask, so I won't hog the floor.
Impulse: Normally, I love being right! In this instance it sucked. I'm not sure if I can be friends with him, but I can't imagine not having him as a friend either. If I do, we have to change some of the boundaries and I can't have the mindset that I am just waiting it out.
Great questions. Thank you!
A good solution for the short term is a snifter of Navan cognac, relaxing music on your ipod, and a place where you can put your feet up and your head back and let the world rotate without you for a while...
I am feeling some wanderlust, but not sure if that's as a result of this epiphany or the time of year! I will be indulging in some good wine this weekend though!
Don't fight the wanderlust! 'Tis a wonderful thing to follow!
Anonymous is right... you are due a good cleansing of the soul with a fine bottle of wine... do enjoy!
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